Sometimes I wish I'm still in my early 20's, where my single status won't be a subject, but I knew at that age, I can't possibly have the same confidence and zeal for life that I already have today... In the past few years, I started to going out more, met new people and slowly learn to be comfortable in my own skin... I knew that I'm not cute enough to attract guys so I fully utilized my personality to overshadow all my other weaknesses, hehehhe =D But those who like me are either too young or too old for me... =( Men closer to my age usually are the shallow type, they only looking for the younger and cuter girls, so sad but true~
I try to approach few guys around my age, going out and met couple of times but I absolutely have no idea whether they regards me as friends or do they attracted to me in more than a friends way or whether they dislike me but don't want to hurt my feeling... =_= I truly wish I could tell !!! I'm so afraid that I won't like their answers so I never bother to ask... They are being flirty and sweet but I learn the hard way that it doesn't necessarily meant they are into you... More than often, it just a stupid game they play to amuse themselves... These kind of mixed signal always left me confused and unsure to take it to the next level or just content with being friends... I hate feeling sorry for myself but I desperately wish there are some kind of manual for my situation... Waaaaaa~ where all the good men goes??? T-T sob2
