Adieu 2013, Bonjour 2014...

Looking back at 2013, it's hard to miss all the lovely memories that it brings ^_^ I feel like I push myself over and over again, doing things outside of my comfort zone and totally out of my element, things that I never knew I'm capable of... I guess I'm not as physically challenge as I seems to think, hehe =P I asked you before about 5 awesome things you did in 2013 in my previous giveaway here and today I'm gonna share my very own Top 5 moments from my point of view... Let's join me revisit the memories together, shall we? ❤_❤

CATCHING FIRE

This is one of the most unique experience that I had in my life. I always look up to those who unselfishly serve the country whether it's army, police, marine or firefighter. We watch them all the time in television and movies but catching them in action is totally different story. What makes it even more special, I get the opportunity to play firefighter too =) It might look easy but wearing the heavy suit alone can caused you shortness of breath, imagine going through the fire and rescuing people with it... I develop a huge respect for all the firemen out there from that day on, you guys are truly awesome!!!

THE BRAZILIAN JOB

Someone very wise told me, you must do Brazilian before you hit 30. So, that's exactly what I did to celebrate the fabulous 29 years I had in 2013. Thanks to The Butterfly Project, I finally come around to do it after contemplating about it for years. Honestly, I never thought I've the courage to go through with it considering how low my pain threshold actually is but getting bare and naked down there is not as painful as I seems think. I went home feeling absolutely free and happy as I manage to achieve another things in my before I'm going 30 to do list, wink2

TRUE BLOOD

I surprise myself last year by agreeing to undergo a rather extreme beauty procedure known as PRP (Platelet Rich Plasma) which involve a lot of blood and needles, a combination that I choose to avoid in normal circumstances... Thankfully, with the help of numb cream and Dr Maryati expertise, the pain is bearable and I can feel the improvement within few days. I'm not sure I'm adventurous enough to go through with the treatment again but I'm feeling proud of myself nevertheless because I managed to stay calm until the very end, hee~ You can read the full story here =)

THE SOUND OF MUSIC

I always tell everyone close to me about my dream of performing in front of live audience and finally in 2013, I challenged myself to do it not one but three times!!! I not only sing, I play ukulele as well during the performance which I think is pretty hard compared to guitar since I'm not used to it but everything work out just fine despite my overwhelming stage fright, lol I'm not anywhere near good yet but it's a good start for me to build my confidence on stage. I hope I can improve myself over time and continue to share my love for music to a larger audience next time around.

FAST & FURIOUS

Last but not least is my adventure going wrong experience with go-kart. I have to admit that I felt over excited to be behind the wheel of the go-kart car and the moment I start driving it, I completely unaware of how fast that I actually go. Before I knew it, I hit the divider and injured myself quite badly. It's still one of the most daredevil act that I ever did in my life despite unable to finish the race due to my accident T_T If I were given the chance to repeat it all over again, I'll do it in a heartbeat (I'll drive a lot slowly of course, wink2)

[Giveaway] Five For Fighting...

I'm having a hard time to believe that 2013 will be leaving us very very soon T_T In less than 24 hours, we will be moving to a new year, 2014 and of course sadly I'm not getting any younger, sigh~ I feel like I still have lots of things to prove and achieve in my life despite how wonderful 2013 turns out to be... I really hope 2014 will be a good one for me cause I have big plans coming up next year, wink2

To celebrate the end of 2013 and my blog 5th year anniversary, I'm throwing a special giveaway for all of you out there who support my writing throughout the years; from my first blog post 5 years ago to this day!!! I can't thank you enough for all the love and kind words. You really make the whole journey a very fabulous and memorable one, muahsssss ❤❤❤❤❤ 

I'll make it very easy for you, just complete the Rafflecopter requirements below and you could win a Limited Edition Anna Sui Makeup Collection or 4 other surprise gifts @_@ This giveaway will be running until 14th January 2014 and open exclusively for Malaysian residents. Winners will be chosen randomly so submit your entry now!!! Until then, Good Luck & Happy New Year lovelies, adieu~

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Older & Bolder...

I'm officially 26 years old today, tsk2 T_T As much as I hate getting older, I think it's quite cool anyway coz right now, younger men were chasing after me instead of married men, hahaha =D So, the best way to celebrate my birthday this year is with a new haircut, bolder and shorter of course, wink2

I always love my long wavy hair, it can look quite nice when I'm bothered to do so, but most of the time, it's hard to maintain and taking care of since im wearing scarf...Anyway, I'm very2 excited about my new haircut, it's sexier, cooler also with a touch of attitude and personality in it, ^_^ I'm not gonna reveal my new hairdo here obviously, but it looks a little like Charlize Theron's haircut in this picture (minus the blond and styling, hehehe =P) I'm lovin' it, n_n

Just My Luck...

I haven't blogging much lately, I almost forgot how writing really calm me down... I do think 2010 is not going to be my kind of year~ So far I've been sabotage (I'm not being paranoid or anything, you know, someone out there really2 trying to give me a hard time despite my best effort to be nice to everyone, =_=) + our car burning to the ground (stupid workshop, arghhh~) + I learn the truth about something that bothered me very2 much (it somehow in totally weird way involve my exes)

Everything seems unpleasant since day one... I'm not the superstitious type but did I really running out of luck??? Or perhaps, losing my lucky charm??? I'm wondering, is it possible that every bad thing could happened one after another to a single person??? Life is a beach!!! huh~

If Only...

With the new year approaching, I can't help but looking back at all the things happened this year... My 2009 resolution included of course... What I have achieved so far and what did I missed, the ups and the downs, the highs and the lows...

It's quite frustrating to know that somehow you're not among the lucky one, the one who got everything fall smoothly on their laps without trying too hard... Anyway, I'm not gonna fret about how unfair life is, I'm just a little too excited to discover that I actually do achieved some of my 2009 resolution...

• Saving money instead of spending it... ----------> errr, this will be on the top of my next year resolution list, I can promise you guys that ^_^
• Learn how to swim... -------------> erm, baby steps, huhu~
• Learn how to cook... -------------> I'm still sucks but I will start buying more cookbook next year, hahaha =D
• Learn how to play guitar... ----------> @_@ I do learn how to play guitar eventhough it cost me my fingers, sob2 T_T
• Bungae jumping... -------------------> I'm not sure if its even possible in Msia, Y-Y
• Join dancing class... ---------------> I haven't succeed in persuading anyone to come with me yet, ^_~
• Get myself a NICE boyfriend... --------------> selfless man is so RARE, huh~
• Join a marathon ??? ---------------> I do join a marathon earlier this year, I can prove it, hehhhe =)
• Lead a healthier and happier life... ----------> I try not to eat lots of spicy food anymore, but I still can't totally escape sweet stuff, I just can't resist when it comes to dessert =P

See what I meant??? I do get some of it right at least, I'm so very proud of myself, ^_~ (I'm allowed to feel a little smug here, heehee =P) If only I can get everything on my list come true... *-*

Closure...

I always believe with the "closure" concept thing which so many people preach on in order to get passed those bitterness and hard feelings... I get my closure just now but it doesn't make me feel any better, I just wish I never knew anything at all... It's true you know, ignorance is sometimes a bliss, please remind me everytime I make a big deal about closure in the future, huhu~

Not Ready To Make Nice...

This week is totally a roller coaster ride for me, when I'm happy, I'm very2 happy but when I'm sad, it's the lowest down I had... My facebook status this week are full of emotional burst of anger and also happiest moment I experienced, maybe it's the pms (thank god women can always put the blame on pms, hahaha =D )

To tell you guys the truth, I'm not really an angry person by nature, I hardly get angry with someone for a long time, it's kind of frustrating actually because when I'm angry, I just don't give a damn about anyone else, it's cooler and better than get your heart trampled over and over again, huh~ =_=

I'm angry with a lot of people this week, people who call themselves my friends but doesn't deserve my friendship at all, people who just can't leave me alone and people who judge me just because they think they are so much better... Well, you know what, I'm not gonna be nice to any of you again, you guys just lost my respect forever... Adios muchachos, dude~

It's Just The Season...

my emotionally disturbed pose, huhu~

Lately things doesn't really going well for me, too many deaths, heartache and strings of bad luck happened... I wish I have the ability to take it all away, play pretend everything will be okay and carry on with being my usual self... But I can't keep fooling myself, it's eating me alive to act like it doesn't affected me at all... How I wish I can erase everything, walking straight and never look back... Do you feel the same way too??? Is it me or it's just the season???

I Gotta Feeling...

This saturday gonna be so awesome, I'm 150% excited already, hehehhe =P Ever since Ayie's death, I have this crazy urge to meet all my close & favorite friends especially those who I rarely have the chances to spend time together due to geographical reason~ =_= I missed all my high school friends in Miri & my college friends that I had lost contact with...

For those who actually read this, I'm still using the same cell phone number just like 5 years ago, which I never have the heart to change since it was given by someone dear to me @_@ (you know who you are, wink2 Anyway, have fun this weekend guys, I know I will, hehehhe =P

With Love...

Hiya all, I'm currently waiting for my bro finish cleaning up my car before we going to do our last minute shopping (yup, my baju raya turn up disastrous this year, thanks to "the tailor" unskilled hand, huh~) and then we'll heading to my dad's hometown in Johor... My parents and my little sis already arrived there this afternoon and as usual, me and my bro will only make our grand entrance on the night before raya (actually we are trying to skip doing all the chores, hehhe =P)

I already promised my mum, I won't be online during raya so this is probably my little goodbye before parting ways with my laptop for one week, huhu~ In case you guys miss me, call me ya, wink2.. Till then, adieu everyone and Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, love you guys, muahs2...

I'll Be Missing You...

How fast the time flies, in just 2 more days, we will celebrating Hari Raya... This Ramadhan, I have lost someone who's dear to me, my college buddies, Ayie who passed away last week... He's one of the funniest and nicest guy I ever knew... How I wish I could turn back the time when we used to hang out and cracking stupid jokes at each other, how wonderful the good old days were, n_n

What I miss the most about him is his kindness; he's never the one who judge me, or others and he definitely have the ability to make people around him happy @_@ I feel so sad coz I didn't get the chance to see him before he died and the distance that prevent me from giving him the last goodbye... His death had surely shocked me to the core and kind of made me thinking, it could be me too~

If life is so short, I want to make sure I live it without regret and bitterness... So,I wanna take this opportunity to ask for forgiveness if I have intentionally or unintentionally hurt you guys all this while... I would deeply appreciate it if you can find in your heart to forgive my mistakes and flaws... I'm only human after all who is less than perfect, and prone to mistakes, heeeheee ^_^

To Ayie, you were definitely one of a kind, I knew I won't meet anyone like you again, you'll always be miss and love by us forever and ever~ I feel so lucky to knew you even though for a short time, you're irreplaceable... Goodbye to you, my dear friend... May Allah bless you, Amin...

August Rush...

I lurrrrrrrrveee August!!! 3 of my favorite people were born in August, hehehhe @_@ I just wanna wish them a very happy and merry birthday!!! I will celebrate all of you guys birthday in different ways and surprises, wink2 ^_~ (why I'm always get excited on someone else birthday, I'm still wondering, hahahha =D)

To Miza, Aun & Deya, I love you all very much & always treasure your friendship and kindness... I feel so blessed and happy to have such a great friends like you guys... Happy Birthday my friends, wish you guys the very best, happiness & health... n_n

With love,
Ayna-chan

From Europe With Love...

My fav is the silver heart shape keychain, me likey n_n

My sister just came back from her Europe trip and look what she have bought for me, kawaii isn't it??? Hehehhe =P Thanks Kura!!! I'm so freaking jealous actually because I always thought I'll be the first one in my family that will go backpacking around Europe sob2 T_T And yes, European men are very2 drop dead gorgeous, wink2 (did my sister purposely said that to make me more jealous than I already am??? huhu~ =P) If I was there, I will invent any stupid reason to tango with Italian or Spanish men, hahhahah =D (If all of them are cute like Torres and Antonio Banderas la, hehhhe n_n)

I read somewhere in Nuffnang that Hyundai will organize a contest where the winner will get a chance to visit Europe, so cool meh~ I'll update you guys if inspiration struck me and force all of you to vote for me, muahhahaha =D (I'm not kidding about that, hehhee =P) Anyway, I get too preoccupied lately with my partners in crime a.k.a my slightley twisted sister so I get a little (lot) lazy to update my blog more often, huhuhu~ But, I'll be back as usual once everything goes back to normal (which I doubt will ever be =P) Till then, adieu, guys~ adios muchachos!!! ^_~

Never Say Never...

July seems like a very promising month to me... And I'm happy to say that I can't hardly wait for many good things to come, hehhehe ^_~ My trip??? I admit that I'm quite skeptical about it before but I love the challenge and curious to experience it myself... Too bad I can't bring my digicam with me so there's no pics to upload... Anyway, it's certainly an eye opening adventure... I met lots of great people that inspire me to enjoy life and live it to the fullest...

One of them is a blind girl name Nadzirah, who lost both her parents but still radiated with positivity and energy... I can never imagine what I'll do if I'm in her shoes, probably shrinking myself away from others and dwell in self-pity T-T... What amazed me the most is her independence, determination and zest for life that I never seen in anyone else before... I truly respect and admire her strength to overcome all the tragedies in her life... I wish she will have everything she deserve and so much more, amin~

I also met a guy who teach me a cool kickboxing moves, hehhehe =P (I'm not being naughty, okey wink2) Other than that, I do met a single mother who struggle to raise her kids and started a new life without her husband presence... Your spirit and courage will definitely paid off later on, girl ^_^ One thing I realize back then is how lucky I am compared to some of these people... I have a wonderful family and friends that have been my backbone and support system all this while... Thank q so much to all of you for believing in me and love me the way I am... n_n

I never thought that I'm gonna love my days over there but honestly, I really looking forward for more trip like this in the future... We can never say never because we never know what we gonna miss... So guys, get ur gear, lets climb the mountain and explore the nature, hehhe @_@ Gambate!!!

Leaving...

I'm not going to London btw and I wish this is my legs, hahha =D

This is my last entry for this month... I'll be leaving to a secluded place where's no connection between human are possible (just kidding, heehee =D) Actually, I'll be going to a destination alone, without my family and friends in a trip to reinvent myself as part of my 25th years old wish to be a more matured and sensible me, hahhaha =P I'll be away for a week from tomorrow until Friday next week and to tell you the truth, I feet quite nervous about it because it's been a while since my last separation from my family... I wonder if they could live without me, hehhhe =P

The major questions are how I'm gonna live without my family and internet for a week??? I will have to forget about Facebook (I'm addicted to Facebook games n_n), Youtube (I learn guitar almost every day from Youtube, pathetic isn't it??? hahha =D), Email/YM (I have to chat with my bff, my sis in Ukraine and my friends on a daily basis!!!) and also Blogging (I like to spend hours reading and commenting my on9 friends blogs and sometimes if the mood struck me, I'll posting something too, heehee =P) This is hard man,arghhhh~ =_=

And yes, I hate packing and unpack too. I rather doing the laundry or cleaning the dishes than start packing... The only good thing is I probably losing the extra weight that I gained lately (thanks too Cadbury's strawberry yogurt chocolate bar, heehee =P) I truly wish, next week will pass quickly... I'm so gonna miss my Aika, my shoes, my books and my Stila... (I'll only bring with me Cherry Crush + Angel Light compact + Convertible Eye Color + Multi Effect mascara + Cassia e/s) I hope the rest will behave themselves when I'm gone, wink2

p.s : To my family, friends and my blogger friends, please don't change too much ya when I'm not around, heehee ^_~ Adieu, guys...

xoxo
Ayna

Meet The Parents...

I've been asked several times why I never blogged about my job.... Half of the reason is because I'm lazy, hehehhe ^_^ and the other half is because I don't think there's anything glamorous about my work... People always thought my job is easy but to tell you the truth, it's so freaking hard... You need patience, passion and creativity to be a good kindergarten teacher... Not to forget the ability to endure high pitch voices and answering the same question over and over again... And if you're squeamish, this is not the right career for you...

The problem with parents is they always underestimated what we do... But I don't think they can last doing our job for more than 30 minutes... Mind you, we have to attend to more than 10 kids at the same time without raising our hands and voices... And we have to make sure the children understand what we teach and pay attention in the class... Children as we all knew have short attention span and in their current age (4-6 yrs old) are more tempted to play than learn...Kindergarten teacher is in another words are overwork, underpaid and under appreciate profession ever... Don't get me wrong, I do love what I do but sometimes I just wish parents will be more perceptive and didn't easily transferred all the blames to the teachers... We are not perfect, we are human too...

Being a kindergarten teacher also comes with a few good points too... You are working half day, you have lots of holiday (yeay!! ^_~), you are allowed to act like a kid (hehehhe ^_^), and also you will never be bored because they are always unpredictable and entertaining, heheheh @_@ (you are losing weight too because you spend most of the time chasing after them, hahahha =D)

Sick Cycle Carousel...

I rarely sick so this one actually caught me by surprised... I'm not sure is it because of the outbreak or my heartbreak or the combination of both but my feverish state was like never before... Everything I ate didn't stayed long and I lost my appetite completely... and I do look like a Zombie!!! =_=... The last time I'm sick like this was during my trip to Langkawi 5 years ago... Arghhhh~ To make it worst, I have 2 more exam next week, 1 major interview to attend and I missed the STILA grand sale!!! sob2 T-T April sure wasn't my lucky month this year!!!

He's Just Not Into You...

In conjunction of the upcoming movie, He's Just Not Into You to the silver screen, I feel compelled to write down about my pathetic love life... I will be 25 in 2 months but sadly, I haven't come close to meet my dream guy... Actually, I never feel the pressure to settle down and having a family of my own before because my parents and my close friends never really push me about it but with my busy body aunties and my stupid colleagues (who assume all the unmarried female are losers) keep asking and scrutinized my social life, I definitely started thinking about it...

Sometimes I wish I'm still in my early 20's, where my single status won't be a subject, but I knew at that age, I can't possibly have the same confidence and zeal for life that I already have today... In the past few years, I started to going out more, met new people and slowly learn to be comfortable in my own skin... I knew that I'm not cute enough to attract guys so I fully utilized my personality to overshadow all my other weaknesses, hehehhe =D But those who like me are either too young or too old for me... =( Men closer to my age usually are the shallow type, they only looking for the younger and cuter girls, so sad but true~

I try to approach few guys around my age, going out and met couple of times but I absolutely have no idea whether they regards me as friends or do they attracted to me in more than a friends way or whether they dislike me but don't want to hurt my feeling... =_= I truly wish I could tell !!! I'm so afraid that I won't like their answers so I never bother to ask... They are being flirty and sweet but I learn the hard way that it doesn't necessarily meant they are into you... More than often, it just a stupid game they play to amuse themselves... These kind of mixed signal always left me confused and unsure to take it to the next level or just content with being friends... I hate feeling sorry for myself but I desperately wish there are some kind of manual for my situation... Waaaaaa~ where all the good men goes??? T-T sob2

Pursuit Of Happiness...

It's funny sometimes how little things can make me happy... I'm happy today because I have made someone else happy (by making fun of myself as usual of course, hehhhe =P) I'm happy because I get unexpected gift out of the blue from my daddy, hehhhe ^_^ (don't be jealous Tqah *wink2*) I'm also happy because my sis, Kak Zura will celebrate Raya this year with us for the very first time in 5 years period...yeay!!! ^_^ I'm happy because I just realize how fortunate I'm to have such a strong support system around me... (my precious family and my lovely friends, I love u guys!!! ^_^) I'm happy today because I make it to the dean list again, hehhhe =P (but this sem I'm not that confident la~ T-T) I'm happy because I'll finally get my hands on the gorgeous Stila makeup case very2 soon~ @_@ (thanx dear, u know who u are, hehhhe =P) AND I'm happy because I love being happy for no reason, hehhe =D Don't worry girls, be happy~ Gambate, hait2!!!

Life Is A Roller Coaster...

I'm quite cynical these days, maybe life did it to me... I thought I'm so close to something good, but apparently it's only my hopeless dream... I growing up believing that I can always get whatever I want, the truth is we can't really dictate our life... So, I guess I have to just go with the flow... I'm done with hoping and wishing for something that's not within my control... I felt like I've been kicked in the stomach when my very own flesh and blood shattered my dream... It's so deep and hurtful because I have to act like I didn't take it to heart but in the inside, my heart broke to million pieces... T_T

Why people can be sooo damn forgetful? Do you really thought other people won't treat you the same way as well? This goes to all my used to be "close friends" too, who seem to forgot who really stood by them all these years... To both of them, I don't need your selfishness lurking in my life, just consider we never really friends from the very start because friends will not forgot their friends... My only consolation these days is when I'm at my workplace, where I can forget all my troubles and try to be happy for 8 hours... Compared to my bff, I'm sure she's having a hell lot worst problem than me... I felt so sad that I can't really help her out in her most excruciating time... I wish her brother will have a super speedy recovery from dengue soon, amin~ My only highlight of the week is my Japanese drama marathon this weekend... Can't wait to complete watching the series... ^_^

Btw, I accidently watch 8tv last night, they have movie night or something that showing a very pro-jewish movie called Everything is Illuminated... Fyi, Israel is the only Jewish state in the world, so I don't get it what the hell is 8tv trying to pull in the heat of Gaza crisis showing movie like that... The movie more or less want us to sympatatize with the Jews that have been victims of the Nazi in the Holocaust tragedy... Are you kidding me? They of all people should understand the pain they inflict to the innocence people in Gaza... Or they want to become like the Nazi themselves, I'm not that surprise...

To 8tv, please be more sensitive next time, this is not a laughing matter... More than 1,000 peoples dies (most of them are children), hospitals + schools + houses are severely damaged, all the channel for medical and food supplies are blocked for their usage, and the number of traumatic children growing each and every day... Only someone with a very2 dark and black soul can do monstrous act like that... To all the heartless Israelis, how can you guys sleep at night? Do you really think you can get rid of the Palestine people that easily? I beg to differ, I believe all the survivors are more than determine to prove them wrong... What doesn't kill you, will only make you stronger...